Autumn

• Autumn had finally comes to end then say hello again to summer. Summer is coming to shine people’s life and provide warmth deep in heart. But as for me, summer is just a flashback nightmare that haunted me all the time it appears. It brings all the memories that I wanted to forget the most. It’s my fault that things had happened. I had tried but all my efforts did not pay off. In my embrace, she took her final everlasting rest.

It was winter back then when the first time my eyes laid on her. I was offered to further my study in University of London. People here so busy with their own things. I tried to catch up the rhythm but as new student here, I was totally lost. In that moment, she steps forward in front of me and offered her help, “Hye, are you new here? You look like lost or something. Do you mind if I help and show you the way?” I was speechless. Her kindness had attracted me. I tried to controlled my emotion and responded to her, “yeah, I am kind of lost in a big place like this. I tried to find the office but do not know which way to go”. Then she took the lead and showed me to the office. “Thank you,” I thanked her. “It is okay, it is by coincidence that I noticed you need help. By the way, I am Adlina. It is pleasure to meet you,” said her politely. “No, it was my pleasure for sure,” replied me.


Day after day, we were getting close to each other. We hang around together at a café and study together at the library. But life is always complicated. Good things we had became the envy of others. One fine day, a group of boys were disturbing her. They blocked her way and one of them took the books she held and threw it away. Then I voe to help her and we had a fight there. I was outnumbered but still trying to protect her for the reason that I didn’t know. We were called to the principal’s office and she warned us for the last time. Outside, Adlina was waiting for me and said, “Sorry for troubling you.” Then she cried. “ It’s okay, I was just paying my debt for your help on the first day I was here. By the way, I feel like it’s my job to protect you,” replied me. She looked into my eyes. Did I say something wrong or my words just fascinate her? Then we walked to the café.


The memories were still fresh in my head. It was on the last day there or should I just called it graduation day. Suddenly Adlina walked forward toward me. She still as beautiful as always. It might be the last moment I looked at her angelic face who will never be mine. Finally she reached me. She shivered and looked excited a bit. I wondered why. She voiced out before I could asked her. “hye are you busy right now?” asked her. “Not really, just looking at the person that owned my heart,” teased me. “There’s something I need to tell you before it’s too late. I don’t want to have regrets about this in the future. Furthermore, it cost me nothing if I give it a try. Right?” she continued. Her mimic worried me. “Yeah, right. So what is it? Do you want to say that I’m not a good friend all this time?” replied me simple with a little joke. “Stop it, please take it seriously,” said her with some anger in her tone. “Apologize me, I didn’t mean it,” replied me. Then she step closer to me and lean her head to my ear. “I love you,” whispered her smoothly. Her words shocked me. Somehow, I felt like the world is mine. And I know, from that moment I will never be alone anymore. She will always be there for me. “I love you since a long time ago. Your ways attracted me and I don’t want to lose even after the graduation,” she continued. “Thanks, you are the precious gift II had for all my life. I love you too,” replied me. I wished time had stopped so that I had that moment all my life.
Adlina, the person that has crossed my path of life. In some ways, she had a part in shaping things I do. And somehow, she filled my life with colours of enjoyment and rhythm of laughter. After the graduation, both of us busy with work. She worked as a doctor in a government hospital, while I was doing some engineering. But still, we keep in touch and almost everyday we meet each other. It’s almost two years of our relationship. One day, I planned to have a dinner with Adlina. I fetched her after work. We went to the Krusty Krab Restaurant. “Umm, bring me 2 Prawn fried rice and 2 lemon ice tea. And if possible, make it special for my beautiful princess here,: I ordered to the waiter in charges. The waiter and Adlina just smiled after I finished my order. “You know me very well, dear. And even you know what I want to order as my meal,” said her to start the conversation. “Of course I do, it’s my job to protect you, right? So knowing you better is also in my job listed,” replied me. Then she smiled softly. Her smile is the things that I will never forget and beautiful as always. The smile that never bored me. We looked each other and my eyes on her before I voiced out again. “How is your work?” asked me. “It’s fine, just many people got sick today and it makes me feeling tired,” replied her. “How about you?” asked her. Before I managed to answer, the waiter came to serve the drinks. He arranged two glasses for us and put a jug of ice lemon tea aside. Adlina’s eyes still on me as the waiter walked away. I took the jug and poured some water into her glasses. And suddenly a ring drop into the glass with water. She noticed it and then looked back at me as I said. “Adlina, will you marry me?”. She looked speechless. Her face turned blushed red as she said, “yes, I do. For a long time I waited for you to ask me”. Then I took the ring and put it on it’s only owner’s finger, Adlina.
Life is totally unfair. When the happiness appeared, there’s a cost we need to pay for it. It was on the second day during summer when I planned to bring Adlina and introduce her to my family. I rode my Ducati and fetched her at home. She still beautiful and her smile on her face when she saw me in front of her gate. “Hye, ready to face the last obstacle in our relationship?” I tried to joke around. “Please stop scared me. It took me two nights to sort out a thing to say in front of your family later,” replied her. “It’s fine. My family know a little about you. I had told them yesterday. Furthermore, I’m still here for you, right?” I continued to strengthened her spirit. “Thank you, my dear. Your words always help me.” It took 15 minutes before we reached my house. I parked my bike outside while Adlina crossed the road to reach my house first. At the middle of the road, she said, “come here quickly. I can’t wait to show your family that I’m the best mate for you”. She was so cheerful and again her smile attracted me. “Wait, I am coming now,” replied me. Suddenly I noticed a van was speeding on the road. I quickly ran for her while I warned her, “Adlina, step aside.” She with a blurred face didn’t understand me, “what do you mean?” Behind you, I shouted. As she noticed about the van, it was too late. The van accidentally hit her and they sped away. I reached for her and laid her head within my arms. “Hold on there, Adlina. I will save you,” said me. “You always do save me, but not this time, dear. Sharing my life with you is the greatest gift for me. I wish I have you forever but I can’t. I want you to live happily, for me. You will always be in my heart. Here, where I set my last everlasting rest. Eyes locked on yours and arms around your last embrace. Thank you and sorry for I have to make my move, I can’t be with you anymore. For the last time, I love you. I always do,” said her. “Please don’t go. I love you too,” replied me. She just smile and took the last breathe after reciting syahadah.
I woke up from my long slept. Wanted the memories fled away. As I open my eyes, Adlina were there beside me. With her tomato-like-cheek, her beautiful hazel eyes greet my. “Good morning, dear. Had a good sleep?” asked her. I just smiled, without answering her. “I wished you for my eternal life. Can I?”