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I could not sleep throughout that night. My mind was exhausted as I am trying to figure out the most reasonable excuse for him leaving. It is already two years since the last time I grabbed his smile, looking for his eyes and suffering from his lie. From that day onwards, I was just thinking for the reason he left. And here now, I am still me that didn’t change a bit, wondering in loneliness as darkness wrapped my whole life. The memory starts to remind me of the sweet, sour, bitter time together..
“Sorry for being late. I was lost in order to find my way here,” he explained. His name is Firdaus. Well for sure this story is all about him. Today, we planned to go together to school. It was the result-coming day. I waited at the place we promised. But he was late. Still late as ever.
“Nah, it’s fine. Just don’t do it ever again. Otherwise I’ll pinch you,” I said with anger-jokingly in my tone. Hearing that, he just smiled and started to reach for my hand and pulled me forward. We were rushing for the school now.
“Okay, just stop that blabbering already and let’s go now. You are just the same as an old lady mad at their child. Aren’t we late already,” he complained while holding my hand in his palm.
“It’s your fault at the first place. Remember??” my nerve started to trigger. But the only thing he did was just his beautiful smile. His lovely face somehow swept my anger away.
“pluto, please come forward,” my class teacher calling for my name. it’s my result finally. I wondered how was it going. Hoping for the best, planning for the worst I think. Finally the priceless but important paper was within my hands. Anxiously, I opened my eyes looking at the paper. And that is the moment something shocked me.
“ Hey princess, congratulation. Of course you got your result with flying colours,” suddenly Firdaus called out for me from behind. I almost faint for that shock-wave (hehe).
“Argh, it’s not fair peeping around other person’s privacy. But thanks anyway. You were right. I got 9A+ for my result,” accidentally I hugged him in front of the public. His face turned blushed-red.
“Dear, don’t be like this. It’s embarrassing. Behave yourself,” he said.
“No way I’m letting you to go. I just claimed my present right now. However, what is your result?” I asked. Without a word, he was just looking down to the earth. His face turned pale. I knew his result already, although he didn’t say it but I can read it from his expression. He was so depressed. I know how hurt he feels, but he still trying to put a smile on his face just to cheer me up for my good result. Then, we started to walk home.
“I had already planned what are we going to do after this,” I started the conversation. With a blurred face, he asking me what is it.
“Well, I planned to further my studies in a local university. Tomorrow we will surf the internet looking for some information,” I continued.
“But I thought you were once said that you want to further your studies abroad. Why change it so sudden?” he asked.
“I am not going to be apart from you. We will always be together after this. It’s useless to study there without you by my side,” I explained. He just smiled.
Early in the next morning, he already waited in front of my house. After I greeted my parents, we walked to the nearby cyber café. We sought for some information and complete a form applying for university. The offer will be posted to our house within a week if our application were accepted.
“pluto, come over to our meeting place. There is something I need to talked about,” I read the message I received as soon as I retrieved a big-brown envelope addressed to me. Then, I got my things and also brought over the envelope. In 10 minutes, I reached that place. He had already been waiting there under our shady tree.
“Hye,” I greeted
“Hye, thanks for coming,” he replied with low-warmth tone.
“Well, I got the offered document already. Haven’t yours reached you yet?” I was asked when I can’t see any envelope nearby.
“It will not reach me because my application was rejected. You knew my SPM result. With that result, getting an offer is almost impossible. But that was not the thing that I wanted to talk about right now,” he exhaled deeply when he had finished up his words.
“So what is it that is most important about?” I started to wonder.
“I think for a good reason, we need to stop contacting each other for a certain period. It’s not that we are breaking up but just for a while. I know this decision hurt you a lot but I was hurt as well. I rather do this than seeing you were insulted for being with me, such a loser character. So doing this I am going to train myself In order to suit you well. With that I think it’s a goodbye for now. But just remember, I love you as much as you do,” he explained and started to walk away. He didn’t even look back at me twice that time. My tears started to flow down my cheek. I had lost my power now, even to stand still. My voice tried to reach him but I had lost it with my soul. My heart scattered to pieces. The only thing I hope at that moment was he was looking back at me and pull me off to his embrace. But it remained as hope.
Two years had passed. I walked to the university as usual. While still dreaming suddenly two guys approached near me. They tried to fool me around. But as usual too, I was tired to do anything.
“Hey. What a guy that picked on a girl? Ashamed of yourself,” suddenly a man’s voice backed me up. The two guys ran away.
“Are you okay, princess?” he said, now much nearer to me. I recognized these voice and only one person calling me that way. As I was on my feet again, my savior was already gone. Am I day-dreaming again? But this time, while walking?????? I’m totally going crazy for real now.
Today my university got a friendly match with Unversity Sains Malaysia in tennis. I can see many audience gathered around the court as the game will start soon. My friend asked me to go with them.
“pluto, let’s go please. Just this once. Maybe you can get to know someone that attracted you,”shila invited.
“Hmm,okay. But just this once and for a little while,” I answered to her request.
“YAY!!!!!let’s go,”shila shouted happily. She was totally like a new born baby, IMMATURED. But that the best thing about her.
I reached the court. It’s the first time I was seeing a tennis game. I wondered how it will look like. Suddenly a person come into the court. His rival is our Senior Zaki. He is our best player in the national. But that’s not attract me, I can’t believe my eyes. My heart started to pounding heavily. The person that will be fight Senior Zaki was Firdaus. My feet stumbled as I was chuckled. For the first time after two years, he once again in front of me. But what is his feeling now toward me?
After a tight a game, the winner of the round was Firdaus. All the audience was shocked as they they cannot believe the reality.
“How can this be? The best player in this state was a loser in front of that newcomer? This must be joking right?” one of the audience did not satisfy with the outcome. But I always believe in his determination. Because he is my Firdaus after all. But can I still say he is mine?Firdaus was totally different from the last time. Now, he was full of manly things.
“I hope the two guys earlier didn’t hurt you. If not, I will get worried,” almost in an instant, he was in front of me. My heart start pounding really fast. Is this reality or maybe I’m dead already because this sure is heaven. I cannot say a word, just looking to the ground.
“Five months more and we will be together again. Just wait for me. But please don’t give me that look again. It made me feel that you were looking at a scary things instead of me. Promise?” leaving me again with a kiss on my forehead, he walked away.
“Okay, dear. It’s a promise,” I knew he still loves me. Always loves me
