Both 20

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currently we are both 20

5 more to be waiting

and wish nothing would happen alongside the years

wanting you to remember your promise
when the first time we meet and got to know each other hearts.
and the first time you craving to be my spm subject
so now, remember back those of our sacred memories.

the most thing i want you to know:

i always love you 

the dream to take you to be my imam, to correct me for every each time i did wrong.

do appreciate my existence as your girl.
as future wife insya-Allah.

rebuild your heart for me.

not to other girl.

thank you for being with me for 3 years. 

Feeling of the one

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Assalamualaikum,

Yes, pain,

I don't know how to describe this feeling here.

It is too complicated

Never thought, i would got this kind of feelings from him.

Why?

Why did he do this to me?

Does he has the same feeling on me?

How he could find other girl even he knew he has me?

Am i not good enough?

To take care of him?

To do anything for him, as a future wife?

Sometimes i do get wrong but sometimes my instinct always right.
I try and i try to approach him whenever i can.

I try to change as you wanted me to.

But he is just putting me away.

It really does hurt me

I pray to Allah for our relationship, Always do.

I always change myself and muhasabah diri to care of my aurat.

So that

I will be a good future wife of yours, of our future child, and wont let you bear my sins, insya-Allah. 

Ya Allah the Almighty .

Hope, nothing bad happened. 

Amin .