apologise.......

once again...

i hurt her...

precious person for me...

i hurt her feeling...

i'm being too emotional...

somehow, it makes me feel...

how much i was not suit her...

for being with her...

although i wanted it the most...

but fact is...

i'm just defile her chastity...

weaken her courtesy...

and also tattered he beautiful grace...

please forgive me...

for everything...

as i'm not good for you...

A Journey

The setting sun cast long shadows across my body
thought of new hope
as i need one
that who will hold my hand through the light
the cold eyes stared to this lonely eyes
the eyes that will light up my gloom world
hoping that you are the one
one said love is complicated
and others said love is happiness
heart of mine applied both
as flowers need sun and water to rise
flowers will die if roots can't have both
black to white is the symbol of my journey
walked through it like i faced it
when you came to this gloom world
and lighted it up
it's like you are the one that i hope so much

Who is he?

the day after we met,
my life only for you,
others said Z or N will be the one who climbed up to the castle to rescue his dying princess
as for me, neither one of them,
the truth is i already have one
he is perfect for me
but he declined it.
i gave him my soul and my heart to stay long as the earth does
and we end up when our destiny come



dream dream as everyone does
he's 7 years old, who always naughty and a weird boy
sometimes, he's very funny and full of sadness
and I'm?
I'm a Pluto girl, 6 years old and very kind than he does
even i like force him,
he always do as i say
spring will comes to meet everyone
as a candle can't separate the light
now, we light up and discovering our upcoming future

I do always love you...

some said life is happy with money...

while others agreed with theory of relationships...

as for me...

neither both applied when she's not around...

she's my life that keep the rhythm of my heart beating...

and it's all about her...

that keep me smiling by just seeing her laughter...

sometimes she's immatures and full of childish...

sometimes she laugh, happy, and full of joy...

and sometimes she hurt, tears flowed down her cheeks and full of sadness..

but to me...

she's still my precious person...

that always shaping inner self of mine..

she is perfect...

by her present,i never wish anything more...

but am i just good enough for her?

am i her everything?

am i?

i want her for eternity...

i don't want to lose her, even for a single minute..

but that will be...

the most selfish thing i ever do just to keep her beside me...

her happiness become my priority...

i mumbled alone through darkness...

" sayang, fly and climbed up high to the sky

to find your happiness even without me..."